But- but I should’ve been able to defend myself in the first place, right? I should’ve been smart enough to keep myself out of that kind of situation.

Enough. You were taken control of by creatures with absurd and cruel power. It happened to you. Tell me Smokescreen, how exactly were you supposed to defend yourself? Let me guess, you don’t know? Well neither do I! So stop trying to blame yourself for something that happened to you because of monstrous sadists and allow yourself to recover. It happened. You’re safe.

You would be weak if you let this define you.